Recently I had someone ask me..."why do you do this?" Why do I share my life so openly, why do I share my journey of motherhood, why do I blog and Instagram. For a second it threw me off guard because I was in a time where the haters and the lack of support and negativity were at a high, and my initial thought was "yah why the heck am I doing this?" Then I sat back and the clarity set in.
I've actually never been an open person. I'm definitely on the shy and reserved side and have some walls up. Some have actually regarded me as "stuck up" or "snobby" prior to getting to know me. The reality is though, I can be socially awkward and introverted. So why do I choose to bare my thoughts and experiences on social media?
This space has become a creative outlet for me. I always dreamed of being creative in an artistic way, whether it be painting, acting or dancing, but I just didn't have that talent. I absolutely love taking photos and capturing moments to look back on and as a young girl and early into my twenties I always had a journal/diary of some sort. To be able to bring those two things together and share the most wonderful, challenging and rewarding journey in my life, motherhood, has been nothing short of miraculous.
A big part of why I continue to do this and put a focus on it is about the people and the connections I've made. Something about connecting with someone across the world, and some even down the street whom are also in survival mode with this motherhood jam is just rad to me. More days than not, being a mom is nothing short of amazing and the best thing ever! But it comes with trials, loneliness and judgement. I have a great group of gals in my life that are my ride or dies....we've been through highs and lows, but in the end our loyalty and support to one another has never wavered. With my blog, I've been lucky enough to grow that group and connect with some badass, strong, inspiring and fearless babes, each who have their own story to share. Some I can relate to and some which are far from what I've experienced. We've talked about everything from feeling lost and anxious in motherhood to life's bright moments. It's made me feel less disoriented and provided me with insight into other moms going through similar times.
It can also be easy to get lost in the hype of these little squares, but one thing I've promised myself is to stay true to myself and my family. We don't have perfect white walls and couches, or large square footage home, and I never judge anyone who does or doesn't. The one thing I've said over and over again is that no one's life is perfect, no matter how much social media may perceive it to be. As a mama, I'm really just doing the best that I can day by day, while working a full time job. While through these small squares it may seem like I'm showing a perfect life...I am in fact sharing my life and journey as the beautiful chaos it is.
So even though I’m quite reserved and shy, this space has allowed me to lean into vulnerability and truly express my creative side. It's allowed me to stay in tune with my motherhood journey and talking about the ups and down's. It's brought some rich relationships into my life that have taught me that speaking the truth is the most important thing, whether people will like it or not. I hope my little corner of the internet world brings all you mamas out there some clarity, smiles and the big message that we're all in this together, supporting one another with kindness in our hearts.